Blessed Be Your Name

Two Names You Go By:
1. Janelle
2. Janny

Two Parts of Your Heritage:
1. Dutch
2. English

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. Jeans
2. pink/green tank top

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1. Love
2. Mutual respect for eachother

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Playing pool & listening to music
2. Drawing/Photography

Two Things You Want Really Badly At The Moment:
1. To not have to get up at 6:30am
2. My foot to stop hurting

Two pets you had/have:
1. Ty my cat
2. Blimpin my 3 legged hamster

Two people who will fill this out:
1. Who knows...
2. That's right Tasha, I did fill it out haha out of boredom cause you never call!! *sniffles*

Two things you did last night:
1. Felt sick
2. Watched endless amounts of movies.

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. Umm hmm Moxies
2. Montanas

Two People that live in your house:
1. Sam
2. My family (they're one person...)

Two things you ate today:
1. Meatball Sub
2. Pork Tenderloin

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. Sonya
2. Sam

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Working from 8-12(noon)
2. Hopefully going to Value Village. Ya 50% off!

Two things you should be doin right now:
1. Sleeping so that I can get up at 6:30am
2. Designing the damn tshirt for YL

There you guys have it.

As for the rest of my life, I started work today..it was pretty good, the girls I work with all seem really nice so far. Can't wait till I'm not the new girl hah. One of the girls, her name was Melissa and we chatted a fair bit..she goes to ET and is a christian so we had something in common. I think I'll fit in pretty well, most of the girls are around my age, maybe a bit older and see really nice. Before work I went to church with Sacha, Will, Nena and baby Ty and it was a pretty good service. Then we went for lunch, then I went to work. Then after work I came home for dinner, then I went to Full Circle which was amazing tonight. Full of energy, there was tonnes of dancing and we sang our butts off. Shaw Cable was also there filming it all so it should be on tv like on wednesday or something. Shawn asked Boomer (he leads music) to sing part of Blessed Be Your Name while he was sitting at the back of the room and it was hillarious cause Boomer was so confused and didn't think he was serious but then he eventually did and he had to sing the lines "you give and take away, you give and take away, my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name" and everyone was quiet and he was pretty loud and I drooled lol it was amazing..I thought I was gunna die. Too bad he's married. All the good ones are. But it did make me realize something. I need to marry a man who can sing. Otherwise I will be too easily persuaded by the ones who can lol. Anyways, that's my day..but I must go and figure out my work outfit for tomorrow. See ya'll later.

Motorskills...Who Needs 'Em!

Let down once again...why do I expect people to ever you know..show up..or call when they say they will? and why is it that people never seem to be willing to hold up their side of a friendship? They always expect you to be there whenever the hell they need you but they can't be bothered to just give you a call or fallow through with plans..or you know, be a friend. I'm kinda bitter about the friendship department right now if you can't tell..might be partially because I'm slightly tipsy right now..but maybe that's just enabling me to express what's really on my mind. I'm sick of being the dependable one..the one that's always there when anyone needs her and not having people return the favor.

On a different note..what did I do today...I cleaned. That's what I did today..I spent 4 hours cleaning my room and the pool room because it was filthy and still smelt like alcohol from when Tracy was in town..there was also still broken glass everywhere. I think I'm starting to like alcohol too much and that's not a good thing. I need out the house..I haven't done anything in what feels like forever..well besides look for a job. Speeking of which, I have an interview at Manhattan Coffee as well as a second interview at Reitmans, both tomorrow. I hope that they go well...Reitmans has already called my refrences which is a good sign. I hope I heard back from Transit cause that's the one I really wanna get..the interview seemed to go so well and it seems like a really cool place to work.

Well I'm going to continue to listen to Hedley and sit here and eat Triscuits while not having full use of my motorskills..so have a nice night.

Decisions I Don't Know How To Make

Today's topic ladies and gentlement is me and relationships...why do I bother trying to have them? It all seems so hopeless to me, I really wonder if I'm ever going to find somebody. As you can see, I'm feelings lightly alone right now..it's that wonderful feeling of extreme singleness. I've had a pretty crappy day today which I guess kinda just lead up to this. I was really down all week, yesterday I was a lot better...today I'm further down then before. What's wrong with me...I just don't know, maybe it's stress..confusion...frustration..that's all I can come up with. I'm frustrated with my non existant love life..I'm confused as to where I'm going in life..where I'm meant to go and what I'm doing. I'm annoyed by the fact that I have no ambition and how much I dislike myself. I got a letter today saying that there's another Interview/Portfolio session thingy at Mal U in August..which means there's still a chance of me getting in this fall, but do I want to? Here's my options:

A) Wait another year for school, work full time and move out.

B) Go back to school full time, work for the summer to save up some money and stay at home.

C) Stay at home, work full time for the summer and then travel in the fall and winter. I have an opportunity to go to Colombia in Jan and then maybe the Netherlands in the Spring.

D) I work Full time, move out and attempt to pay my own way through college at the same time.

Those are my four options for my life pretty much and I have no idea what I'm going to do.

So that's that...in other news, I'm ready to strangle everyone around me..especially my sister and Shawn who have been so fucking selfish lately and I'm so sick of it. Ahhh! I'm going to rage soon, I can't take it. Seriously..fuck. I'm just gunna go before I keep getting more and more tense.

Wow I Am A Sap...

Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.

How many songs? 687

Sort by artist

First artist: 3 Doors Down
Last artist: Young MC (That's right!)

Sort by song title

First Song: 3 AM-Edwin McCain
Last Song: You Give Love A Bad Name - Bon Jovi

Sort by time

Shortest Song: Kyles Mom Is A Bitch - Southpark 1:15
Longest Song: Stairway To Heaven - Led Zepplin 8:47

Sort by album

First Album: Not many of mine have the album labeled but the first one that comes up is Nsync!
Last Album: Youth-Collective Soul

How many songs come up when you search for "sex" - 1
How many songs come up when you search for "death"? - 1
How many songs come up when you search for "love"? - 26! (Wow I am a sap)

Haha well that was fun, explored my Windows Media Player...while I'm listening to BSB fairly loudly..good times. Well I have a job interview yesterday at Transit, went well..find out next week if I got the job. I have another interview today at Ardene and I don't really want the job as much but I'll go anyways just in case. But I'm off to watch GH peace out!

ps. I've realized I really am a giggly 12 year old girl on the inside.

Tidbit Of Nothing

I've been kinda depressed for the past week or so, and I don't really know why...well I know it started with the anniversary of my grandma's death but it just didn't really go away. I'm feeling a lot better today though. Things seem to be looking up a little bit. I had a job interview today at Transit and it went pretty well, couple other places looked slightly promising too. I totally just stood up to Shawn also which felt amazing. I told him to shut up because he was being a jack ass and I'm sick of it. Normally I just shut up and let him make fun of me and be a jerk but I'm not going to anymore, I need to stand up for myself more often. So today I as you can guess, dropped off resumes and had that interview, then I came home and hungout for a bit. Went out with Sacha, Will, Sam and Victoria after dinner to Burger King hah they wanted burgers and Sam and I had already had tacos..but anyways, it was good times. Was supposed to hangout with Tasha tonight but she never called and isn't answering her phone..hope everything's ok. That's really about all that's new..um ya..so that's all.

Survery...due to being extremely bored!

1. What is your full name? (this includes embarrassing nicknames) Janelle Driana Vanden Boer, I have many nicknames..usually depends on what people feel like calling me at any given time..there's Nelle and Janny are the most popular

2. What would you rather your name be? I actually really like my name, it's not very common

3. When’s your birthday? December 8th 1986

4. What color are your eyes? Brown/Hazel depends on the day

5. When you are 80, will you dye your hair a bright color and walk downtown with me? Absolutely, sounds like a blast!

6. If you could only pick one band/singer to listen to for the rest of your life, who would it be? Right now my answer would be Hedley lol But besides them probably The Beatles

7. What is your ideal profession? I don't fucking know, stop hastling me!

8. Do you have any siblings? Sister named Crysta, then there's Shawn, Sam and Reyna who are all like siblings to me too

9. What is the one thing about you that you think nobody understands? Why I sometimes get really quiet and distant when hanging out in groups of people

10. Do you have a lot of friends? I'd say I have a fair amount of friends, and they all rock.

11. If you had to be put into one clique at school, which would it be? According to all online survey's I'd be emo lol

12. If a war against beings that couldn’t die broke out tomorrow, would you fight for your country anyways? Umm I'm pretty sure that instead of fighting I'd just be totally partying it up and making the best of the little time I have left. Like honestly people..if they can't die, why spend your last few days fighting when you could be dancing and doing kareoke?

13. What is your favorite book or books? The HP series is definately at the top of that list, I love them. I also love John Grisham books and Angelas Ashes

14. Who is your favorite teacher at school? I don't go to school ok?

15. Which one do you hate the most? What is this?! I just said I don't go..

16. Can you rub your tummy and pat your head at the same time? Umm let me see...YUP! rather well apparently

17. Who is your favorite celebrity? Hmm I dunno...maybe...JACOB HOGGARD?

18. What do you do in your spare time? Spend time on the computer, hangout with friends, read, draw, geeky shit like that

19. Are you a loner or a social butterfly? I dunno, kinda inbetween...

20. Do you want to join the “Down with Love” club? What the hell is that

21. Who do you have a crush on right now? Don't even go there..there's been recent developments in this department and if you really wanna know you can ask me *blushes*

22. Do you think they like you back? I have no clue

23. What’s the last movie you saw at the theatre? Benchwarmers I believe

24. If you could be any animal, which would it be? some kind of monkey..like a chimpanzee! Or a dolphin

25. What color would you say you are? Magenta! I'm all about the hot pink

26. Do you like video games? sure do, well depends on the games

27. What’s your birth sign? Sagitarius.

28. Do you know what that means about you? Ya, that I'm slightly stubborn and free spirited, caring blah blah blah

29. Have you ever been in love? nope

30. Ever had unrequited love? hah oh ya

31. What’s your favorite store? For clothes I love Reitmans, discovered Old Navy yesterday but didn't have money to buy anything. I love Showcase cause they have cool things.

32. How is your relationship with your family? It's alright, sometimes it's better than others.

33. What’s your favorite thing to drink? Ice tea, Juice...I love juice.

34. What are three words you would use to describe yourself? I honestly don't know..I can't think of anything.

35. Do you drink alcohol? Ya, if there's a special occassion or if we go to the bar or something. Drank way too much lastnight!

36. If you’re going to have kids, what would you like their names to be? Hayden if my first child's a girl, Brayden if it's a boy. I also love my middle name (Drian) and wanna name a daughter that.

37. What’s your favorite childhood memory? Tea Parties haha

(There's no 38!!)

39. Have you ever been chased by geese? Yup, sure have...been attacked by a rooster too.

(I accidently deleted number 40!!!)

41. Do you like to dance? Do I ever, let's Time Warp baby! haha apparently I like to dance on tables too..well that's what Tasha told my DAD anyways! (didn't happen for all those wondering)

42. Do you hate anyone? Not hate persay, just strongly dislike.

43. Are you ticklish? Sometimes

44. What’s your favorite outfit? Right now my Hedley t-shirt and beige pants lol

45. Do you have a religion? Yes, I'm Christian

46. Are you a vegetarian? Haha no, I like meat too much

47. Have you ever skipped class? Ooooh ya

48. Do you believe in ghosts? sorta

49. Do you believe in an afterlife? These are really weird questions and i'm way too tired!

50. Do you listen to your horoscope? I read them, but don't really take them to heart

51. Do you chew on the end of your pencils? Sometimes, if I'm nervous

52. What’s on your bedroom walls? Well they're hot pink, with records around the top, some posters (lovely Orlando) a couple old calendars, some shelves...

On the opposite sex

53. Long or short hair? All depends on the guy really

54. Light or dark hair? Usually dark..occassionally light hehe

55. Light or dark eyes? Either or, usually dark

56. Indoorsy or outdoorsy? A nice balance of both, I like a guy that will go for walks but also likes to just stay in, curl up and watch a movie.

57. Shy or confident/outgoing? Has to be a little outgoing cause I can be pretty shy and if we're both shy then we'd just sit..lol but not too confident/outgoing cause then they're overpowering.

58. What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes, smile..just general demeaner..what kind of vibes they give off

59. Describe your dream guy/ girl: Someone that's willing to spend the time to really try to get to know who I am and what I'm all about. that will respect my values and morals and care about me. Someone that I can just be me around and not have to worry about trying to impress.

60. Would you rather them be good looking or have a great personality? Definately the personality, to me if a guy doesn't have the personality there's no way he can be good looking. It's the personality that makes the person and that makes them attractive.

61. What confuses you most about them? Why they're never willing to just tell you how they feel, they make you drag it out of them. Oh and how they're way too afraid to take the chance of "ruining a friendship".

Friends

62. Who’s your best friend? Sacha, Shayna, Andrea and Megan are probably my 4 closest friends right now..I can't just label one as bestfriend..

63. Who’s your oldest friend? Megan!

64. Your newest friend? Umm well there's all the people I just met and befriended at Tasha's birthday party lastnight..

65. Who is the craziest? Tasha

66. Funniest? I'd probably say Tasha, Sacha and Shayna...theyre all pretty funny ladies.

67. Loudest? Sam!

68. Most fun? That's a lame question! Obviously all my friends are fun..why would I hangout with them if they weren't??

69. Most creative? hmm I don't really know, none of my friends are very artsy..

70. Most musical? I'd probably have to say Will

71. Most talented? Well they're all talented in their own ways..but I'd probably have to say Will again.

72. Most athletic? haha my friends..atheletic?

73. Smartest? umm I dunno...Colin's pretty smart

74. Prettiest? You're all gorgeous!

75. Most confident? Probably Sacha and Tasha

76. Most energetic? Tasha

77. Nicest? You guys are all super nice

78. Sweetest? I'd say probably Megs but you're all very damn sweet

79. Meanest? I don't know..Jason can be pretty mean lol

80. If you were about to assassinate the president, who would you pick as an accomplice? Either Tasha or Shayna..they understand the importance of Stealth...and they're just that crazy.

81. Who would make the best spy? Probably Colin, I could picture him dressed in a black suit with sunglasses (kinda like the men in black)

82. Who is most likely to win the nobel prize? Definately Erin

83. An oscar? Megan!

84. An olympic medal? Sorry guys but it doesn't look like olympic gold is in any of your futures...

85. If you could only take one person to a deserted island, who would it be? Jacob Hoggard haha oh was he not an option?

86. What is one question you would like to ask the general public? Why do you look down upon me because of my waist size? (I like Megan's question, it's so true too...stupid public) I'd also ask why people insist on stereotyping and judging people on their race or religious beliefs.

87. What ticks you off? Ignorant people and homophobic people...just people who judge others for any reason

88. What are you scared of? Sharks! and Abanconment...

90. Have you ever stolen anything? Not that I'm aware of. Except all of your hearts!

Let's Do The Time Warp Again..and Again...and Again..and...AGAIN!

So tonight was interesting...today sucks. Here's an explanation for all ya, lastnight was Tasha's birthday party...some drama but I had an overall good time. Very hungover today and it's the anniversary of my grandma's death and mothers day all in one. Good combo hey. So I come on the computer after having a nap to try and get rid of my hangover and to make up for lack of sleep lastnight and Jason starts getting mad at me for not wanting him to go to the party lastnight and all this and he knows that it's like the worst day in the entire world to start shit with me...and so I give up and just basically tell him to fuck off cause I didn't wanna deal with it. And now...I'm bawling and I can't stop. Why can't people just leave me alone when I tell them to leave me alone. I told him like a week ago that it'd be for the best if he were to just stay away this weekend..does he listen, no. He starts a fight. The combination of anger and upset is not good right now. Hedley's starting to make it better..slowly. So is remenising about the good parts of lastnight lol like said drinking game that got me very drunk. Good times.

Lastnight...lastnight was definately interesting, won't get into too many details. A little drama but it's all good. I really wish Tasha had had more fun than she did and we'll have to make it up to her sometime soon. Maybe minigolfing or something. Most people left at like 4am or something like that and then the rest of us just crashed in various rooms. I learned that a double bed is NOT meant for 3 people lol but it was fairly cozy anyways. Just a lot of spooning, but who doesn't like spooning. Woke up at 8am, got up at 9am..came home and got showered and then ended up at my grandparent's house, with a massive hangover wanting to kill something. Spent most of it outside chatting with my cousin and avoiding my grandmother. Came home, drew a giant fish on our fence for my mom to make a mosaic and did some yard work. Then I went to lay down, woke up at 7pm and everyone was gone. Dunno where they went..but I'm hungry. That about sums it all up...oh, I forgot to mention there was endless amounts of Time Warping which always leads to good times. Anyways, I'm outta here, see ya

Anything Left?

I'm so cold and far away from home

You're so tired and so damn alone

It's darker and much harder to be me

So far away from my reality

For those who don't know, that song is Villain by Hedley..one of my favorites. Hedley's really become the theme music to my life lately and when I start feeling angry or upset one of their songs just happens to pop into my head. Over the past couple days I've slowly begun getting more and more depressed..and I know it's not going to get better, atleast not until this weekend is over. Sunday isn't just mothers day for me..it's also the anniversary of my grandmother's death and either tomorrow or Saturday would have been my grandparent's anniversary. It's never affected me the way it has this year..I don't really know why..I guess I'm just really realizing how much of my life I never got to share with my grandparents..they never saw me graduated or anything..they'll never meet their great grandchildren or see me get married. I don't even really remember what my grandma was like anymore..well it's more like I feel as though I never really knew. Was she like me? Or was she just one more member of my family that I have nothing in common with.

There's one thing that's been on my mind lately...Young Life wasn't enjoyable for me at all tonight, I was really down most of the time and then I ended up very angry by time I finally got to go home. I'm also in a lot of pain and hadn't eaten in twelve hours. I don't mind cleaning up the portable while people get driven home..but for other leaders to get back while I'm still cleaning and to just stand there, goof around and watch me instead of offering to help...it pisses me off and it's not fair. I was freaking limping around the portable moving 6 full size couches around, as well as like 4 stacks of chairs that aren't exactly light. I was so unbelievably close to walking out of there and not going back.

Maybe I really should consider moving to Port or Victoria or something..doesn't really seem like there's a whole lot left for me here. I don't know, maybe I've just had too long of a day and need some sleep. I should do that...sleep.

I'm tired of this

What you see is

What I have never tried to be

Just let me breathe

Just take me anywhere but here

Streetfight-Hedley

See me cry

See me smile

See me fall

See me fly yea

And I'm tired

Of this stupid game

Running in circles from you again

Don't blame me

For what I gotta do

I won't hate myself to be loved by you

Don't push me

Don't blame me

Or you'll be sorry

You're not getting through

I won't back down

As of right now

I won't hate myself to be loved by you

Johnny Falls-Hedley

I'm Too Drive To Drunk!

Hola amigos. So..someone just lit the road outside my house on fire..it was good times. My dad had to rush out and get the hose and put it out and my mom had to call 911 cause we didn't know what caused it or anything. Looks as though it was a wine bottle full of gasoline that had somehow been smashed on the cement. Whether it was people walking or in a car. It was freaky! One minute we're watching John Q, and the next minute the room's lit up and we look outside and there's flames the size of a large car. My mom thought the house was on fire at first and Sam and I both thought it was cross and that the KKK were attacking our neighborhood lol oh man..we need to watch less tv/movies. Firemen and Cops came, cleaned up the glass and everything and the cops went to go look and see if they could find anyone suspicious and all was over and done with.

It's been one interesting day to say the least! lol But, we'll start with friday instead. Tracy and Brendon finally show up at about 7pm and so we eat dinner and Tracy finishes her couple of errands and then the drinking begins..well for some. My mom and dad did not partake, nor did my sister because she was upset over matters with Shawn. But we're playing pool (me, Tracy, Brendan and Sam) I have a few Smirnoff Triple Blacks and then Sam decides to make me an orange juice and Malibu. So, I drink some..then Tracy chugs the rest..so Sam makes me another. By about midnight or 1am (I don't really know) I'm completely wasted...luckily I didn't make a complete fool of myself, I was rather well behaved...I just kinda layed down on the sofa bed and started saying how someone's a douche and how comfy the blanket was lol Everyone else was fairly drunk at this point too..well besides Sam, she was alright. I go to bed at 1:30am and try to get up at 2am to get some water and can't even walk. I got as far as my dresser and had to retreat to my bed. Needless to say I was very hungover at 8am when I woke up. There was some dry heaving in the kitchen sink while my mom stood and laughed at me and then I finally gave up and went back to bed and slept it off. Sam and I got up at noon and headed to Petsmart to meet up with everyone else. We all left shortly after and came on back home.

We go buy some food..and stop by the liquor store and then come home and eat..then Tracy and Brenden went to the Casino for a while and came back at 10pm. By that time I'd make Tracy some pretty awesome CD's for us to dance to and we headed downstairs. They wanted me to get drunk again but I didn't. I had one Smirnoff twisted watermelon and my body wouldn't let me drink anymore. Tracy and Brenden on the other hand drank a lot. They were playing pool and everytime they missed a shot they had to take a drink..and since beer wasn't doing it for Brenden I kept handing him the huge bottle of Whisky lol He's a pretty quiet guy but also very full of himself but he's a lot nicer to be around when he's drunk. He's got a lot of issues however so I didn't get too close..even though he is kinda cute. So by about 12:30 Brenden's almost passed out and Tracy's trying to tuck him into bed. I'm pretty sure the best part was:

Brenden: "we can't go you guys!"
Sam: "wha???"
Brenden: "I'm too drive to drunk!!"

So that was the weekend while Tracy and Brenden were here..Brenden was drunk almost 24/7. This morning I got up and got ready for church, Sacha and Will picked me up and we headed out for the longest service known to man! It was almost 2 hours long and I kept almost falling asleep. I swear, if it wasn't for Will's excessive twitching I would have. From there we went and bought Eric and Will M some b-day presents and then got ourselves some pizza and a movie and headed to the guys' house. We ate and watched Snatch and I almost fell asleep once again. Josh spent most of the afternoon beating the crap out of Will M lol it was hillarious..for some reason Will M thought he could get away by going up on Will W's top bunk of his bunkbeds but really it just trapped him and lead to even more beatings. Will W didn't help..instead he kept passing Josh stuff to beat him with and Sacha was playing both teams to try and make it more interesting lol. Once that was over we went upstairs to eat cake and Josh didn't believe that the sliding glass door locks now so Sacha locked him outside. We then proceeded to close all the blinds and sit and enjoy the quiet haha he was out there for like 15 minutes..and then Will W went down to the lower deck and threw him up a rope. I can't believe he actually considering trying to use it. We eventually let him back inside. Then Sacha, Will and I went to West Wood Lake but it was too windy and cold to get out of the car so we just sat and talked for like 1.5 hours or something and I came home. The only thing that's happened since then is the whole fire insident which I already explained.

So, I'm pretty sure that's a complete update of the occurances of my weekend..well most of them, everything except for a massive blow out I had with Jason lastnight that I don't really wanna get into but that I hope will go away quickly! I hate fighting with friends..but what I hate even more is having someone insult me and try to hurt me just because they don't like what I have to say. But anyways...I must go to bed.

Letting The Whole Thing Pass Me By...

Close my eyes.
Let the whole thing pass me by.
There is no time,
to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side!
I need to let go let go let go let go of this pride.

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes.
Let the whole thing pass me by.
There is no time,
to waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side!
I need to let go let go let go let go of this pride.

Do I expect to change, the past I hold inside,
with all the words I say,
repeating over in my mind,
somethings you can't erase, no matter how hard you try,
an exit to escape is all there is left to find.

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)
(I know I always loved you)

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste asking why
I'll run away with you by my side
I'll run away with you by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride,
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

- Echo by Trapt

Ok for anyone who's heard this song before they know how amazing it is. I remember hearing it like a year ago when I was working at Stock Exchangers and I didn't know what it was called or who it was by. I tried looking it up but had no luck cause you wouldn't think the name would be Echo if you listen to it. So about a year passes and my sister is just like "You have to hear this song on the Trapt CD I got! It's sooo good" and she plays it for me and it didn't even click right away that it was that song..but I knew I had heard it somewhere. FINALLY I figure it out and now I'm addicted. I don't know why I get so addicted to songs..I got through major phases when it comes to my music, it's insane.

I feel as though I'm going through another major turning point in my life, another major growing and developing phase (Emotionally, Spiritually and Mentally.) I'm really beginning to realize how much I've changed over the past couple years and how much my life has just changed in general. I don't remember if I mentioned in my last post that I have an opportunity to go to Columbia with Sacha and Will in January on a Missions trip. My mom knows but she hasn't said much other than "what about school?" and the answer to that question is..."I don't know" I really don't. I don't even know if I wanna go through with this application process...I kinda feel as though I need to take another year off, move out on my own..work, save up money and live my own life for a while. Experience life and make a solid decision about school and what I want to take. There's so much I want to do with my life and I don't know what order I want to do it in! I need some serious advice..or something.

Well I'm beat and could really use a good night's sleep and since there's absolutely no one to talk to on msn I might as well go to bed! Places to be, people to see, photos to take tomorrow. See ya!

PS. If you're reading this I would really like any advice you could give! Comment! :D