Coke addicts, "rescued" dogs, drunk tanks and caterpillars?

Ok...so the past like 72 hours have been EXTREMELY eventful...where do I start really. Well how about I start on friday. Ok so to start this off I'll explain one thing. My mom has a really good friend named Tracy who lives in Victoria (Mechosin) and has an animal society...she's pretty much an aunt to me and has been more of one than my real ones have ever been. On thursday night her son told my sister that he had moved out and was living with his biological abusive dad because he couldn't live with her anymore cause so much crap was happening...So, my mom had been trying to get ahold of her for quite some time and conversations were constantly only lasting about thirty seconds until friday morning when Tracy picked up the phone and asked that we don't call her because she's gotten into trouble and her phones are tapped. Obviously we get concerned and so friday night we all pile into Shawn's car and head to Mechosin. We get there to find her oldest son who's never in town standing outside with Tracy's mom and some strange people we've never met before. We find out that the strange people were hired to make sure that no one takes anything from the house or vandalizes it (A little too late for that since it says "fuck me" on the front of it in large letters). We're then told by her mom and son that we shouldn't be there, that the spca is coming on monday to seize all the animals and that Tracy's totally hopped up on cocain and that this 22 year old guy that had been staying with her had started selling thousands of dollars worth of drugs out of her house and that the cops are involved and that Tracy's not even living at home, she's going from crack house to crack house and that all their crack buddies and 15 year olds are living in the house. So I start freaking cause my chinchillas live there so we get a cage and get the chins and then Crysta finds one of the pomeranians upstairs locked in a room so they ask us to take her with us and keep her safe for now, so we get out of there as soon as we can. We got home pretty late and pretty afraid that she was going to show up freaking out..but eventually went to bed. The next morning we got a call from her mom saying that she's really mad and will probably show up at some point during the day..and that her truck was involved in a hit and run so there's a warrent out for it and that we'd have to call the cops. I call work to try and get the day off cause I didn't want her showing up there raging on me but my boss says no. Luckily she called me back saying that she got the shift covered for me.

A few hours later Erin calls and he's in town and has no where to go so he comes over and then we head over to Tasha's where we find her and Chris. Tasha just barely awake looking rather disheveld. (pretty sure I spelt that wrong) so she got a shower and we all headed to HMV and then to MGM where Tasha so kindly bought us all lunch (the little brat). Then we stopped in at A&B sound and then Tasha and Chris had to go to work so Erin and I decided to stop in at Geoff's and see what he was up to. After that we just came back here and watched tv and ate some dinner till Alex and Chelsea showed up.

Tracy never ended up showing up but just after dinner my mom got a call saying that one of the volunteers had caught some of our cats so her, Crysta and Shawn headed back to Victoria to pick them up. The four of us headed over to Dominos looking for Tasha and Chris but they weren't there..just everyone else was, so then we went to Chelsea's and then to pick up some beverages and then back here. We convinced my dad to drive us to the sea wall so we went down and sat on the cement step things below the bridge and enjoyed ourselves and then went and played on the playground and walked all along the sea wall. Alex decided that he was a caterpillar and ate like every leaf he could find and somehow convinced Erin to do the same. Eventually Chris called and asked us to meet him at the Globe so we said ok and then Shawn called and said they wanted to join us so we waited at Civic for him and Crysta and then walked up to the Globe where we met up with Chris outside and he forced us to have a group hug...and all highfive him. Then we went inside and met up with Josh and Loren and then eventually Frazer. We went and sat upstairs at a table where we couldn't see the feature presentation and some people had some more drinks and we saw a couple guys from highschool and laughed. After last call we decided to head over to 70 Below but it was pretty lame and the DJ was a dick so we left but somehow we misplaced Erin and Alex and it took us 15 minute to find them laying down in the grass outside the church behind this huge fence just stairing up at the starts. I thought Chelsea was going to strangle Alex lol but it was pretty funny.

Next thing we know we see Chris running up the street screaming at the top of his lungs with a cop chasing after him telling him to stop and lay down on the ground and Josh running behind the cop yelling please don't arrest him, or take me too or something haha and then the cop like grabbed Chris and threw him to the ground and hand cuffed him and was rather harsh and what we thought was unnecessarily forceful. They then put Chris in the police car and Tasha and Alyssa magically appeared...Tasha going "my boyfriend just got arrested! what the hell's going on?!" and then me attempting to explain the situation to her while everyone was trying to hold Josh back and restrain him from joining Chris. After that we all headed back to the cars and I got a ride with Tasha cause there wasn't enough seats in Erin's car with Shawn driving and Crysta there too. So they all took off and we stopped at Lorne's where there were people..and we drove some guy home..and then Tasha got mad at Frazer for joking about being too drunk to drive AFTER he was already home. Got home at about 2am and everyone was already passed out haha got up this morning and everyone was still inebriated. Well just Alex and Erin. They're still sleeping cause they both need to be able to drive today..Erin all the way back to Vic in time to work at 2pm.

As for today I have to work at 2pm and my mom's headed back to Vic to pick up more of the cats and deal with all that. I'm not looking forward to explaining to my boss exactly why it is that I needed yesterday off cause it's a rather interesting story. I'm hoping that Chris' night in the drunk tank wasn't too bad and that some stuff gets sorted out today without too much explosion. I hate seeing things that I feel obligated to tell a friend about cause I don't like having people mad at me and I hate being the cause of people fighting or whatever. But sometimes you can't just ignore stuff. Anyways...my wrist is killing me! (oh ya, I punched a wall a few days ago) so I'll talk to ya'll later, hopefully things calm down!

Highlights Of My Life....Not

Well, I figured I'm pretty over due for an update on this thing...it's been a while..yet very little has really changed lately. I finally have a day off tomorrow, will be the only day off in two weeks. I went to Rathtrevor Beach with Crysta, Shawn, Alex and Chelsea the other night and met up with Chelsea's parents and had a barbeque and swam in the ocean. It was a lot of fun, good times throwing sea weed at eachother. It's been really nice having Alex and Chelsea around lately, spending some more time with them. I've missed them lots. I haven't really seen anyone else much lately, everyone's been so busy and I've been pretty crabby so it's probably for the best. I don't do too well with heat and well...it's been excrushiating.

I get my tattoo next tuesday and I'm so unbelievably excited. I've been wanting it for so long and now I finally get to have it done. I'm not really sure what's up with people and all wanting to be the center of attention lately..it's just starting to kinda piss me off. Well more just annoy but you know what I mean. It's like everyone's struggling to be the one who gets the most attention from people and the one to do the craziest, out of control thing. I really wish that people could just chill out, be who there and not think about what other people are doing or how other people being themselves is affecting them. I don't really know if that made sense to anyone that's reading this, but basically people just seem to be getting really self centered. Everything's about them and how they can stand out and how other people are making them look. None of this is directed towards anyone in specific so if you're reading this, don't think that I'm aiming it at you. It's more just a general observance that I've made that has become an annoyance to me.

Work was painful and tiring today...I was supposed to be off at 1:30 but a girl phoned in sick so I had to stay until 6pm. I was stuck in the fitting rooms the entire time and it was freaking busy. For the first 4 hours of my shift there was only 2 of us working so that was hard, and then even when 2 other people got there they didn't even give me much help with all the clothes that had to be put back on the floor. At one point there were 3 entire clothes racks completely full of stuff people had tried on. I finally got off of work and my dad wasn't there to pick me up yet so I went to get an ice tea and about two minutes after I got it, I dropped it on the cement and the bottle shattered all over my feet. (It was glass). So I picked up as much as I could because I just invisioned some kid falling and getting scratched to crap by all the broken glass. Then my dad got there and he had to get some stuff from Walmart so I STILL didn't get to go home. Finally got home at like 6:45pm (now in a really bad mood) to find my mom in probably an equally bad mood if not worse and strange neighbor girls in my pool. So, my desire to go for a swim was quickly shattered to pieces like my ice tea bottle and I gave up on actually enjoying my evening.

Tomorrow I have the day off which is amazing and I wish so badly that I could sleep in but I know damn well that I won't be able to. I also have to try and deal with work schedules at SW cause I didn't have a chance to get there today. On top of everything going on lately, I've been feeling really ill. I'll be fine one minute and then so nausious that all I can do is curl up in a ball and try to fall asleep the next. I've been getting really bad migrains...the other night I had the worst one I've EVER had in my entire life and I've had a lot of really bad migrains. It was after the beach, just before I went to bed. I ended up in a ball on my bed bawling my eyes out trying to block any light whatsoever from reaching my eyes and trying to stop any and all sound..including the small fan cooling my room down and the wind chime in the back yard. I never got to shut the wind chime up but I eventually managed to fall asleep and wake the next morning extremely surprised that the pain was gone.

That's about everything that's going on with me lately, if anyone wants to do something tomorrow I'm definately up for it. I could use a little bit of fun. Oh, for anyone wanting to know..Erin's coming up on friday and there will be muchum partying that night. Shayna's birthday is also on monday night and there will be lots of partying then too.

PS. I am madly in love with Jeremiah from The One: Making a Music Star, he sang Imaging by John Lennon tonight and I want him to father my children. Well maybe only one..the others will be fathered by Jacob Hoggard. And no people, he's not gay.

Lost For Words

Do you want the good news or the bad news? Well since I have no way of knowing what you just said I guess I'll start off with the bad news and save the good for last. My Oma just called about half an hour ago to tell my dad that my Opa isn't doing well and that she's worried for his life. Apparently he's barely getting out of bed and my parents think that there might be something wrong with his heart. He's 90 years old so you kinda have to expect it...but I dunno, he's just one of those people that I thought would ALWAYS be around. I guess that's just me being unrealistic for once. My family is going to go down to Ladysmith in the morning to see him and I really want to but I have to work at noon. I tried phoning my boss at home to see if I can get out of work but I got her answering machine and so I left a message...I'm still hoping she calls me back tonight.

As for some other news (some good, some bad)...I'm down to 2 jobs which is awesome. I'm going to be strictly at Reitmans and Shoe Warehouse in Country Club...and I may be going full time at SW which would be amazing. I am starting to like it a bit more than before at Reitmans but full time at one place will be so much better than part time at 2 and trying to coordinate schedules and crap. Speaking of jobs I've been working a lot, doesn't really feel like I get days off like ever. But that's partially due to the fact that when I do get days off, I don't get to relax. There's so much stress around my house and so much that I have to do that I don't get any time to chill. I'm not sleeping much so I'm really tired pretty much all the time and have been getting migrains and tension headaches all the time. I've also just been getting randomly nausious and dizzy/light headed and feeling like I'm going to pass out...this also comes with intense stomach pain and I dunno what's causing it.

As for some good news, I finally got Tasha's birthday present to her and she seemed to enjoy it. For all who didn't know, it was a martini shaker with 4 glasses and a holder thing to carry around aswell as a bartending book with recipes for pretty much every drink known to man. Other good news is that I have a day off on monday and should actually get to enjoy it because Sacha's not doing over time and is going to come over and lounge around the pool with me. As long as the sun comes out that is. Maybe we'll go see Pirates 2 or something too. That'd be awesome cause I'm still dying to see it. You know what else would be awesome? Winning the lottery. That would be amazing right now and would help my family so much. But it's so damn unlikely to ever happen.

Well that's all then news I have for this evening...I'm kinda lost for words at the moment because I'm so confused about what's going to happen to my Opa or what's even wrong with him because no one knows. I'll talk to you guys all later.

That's That

Ok so probably my biggest pet pieve is people making plans and saying they're going to do something and then just not. Drives me freaking nuts...I'm pretty sure that that is what a phone is for. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt and assume that something important came up but after 24 hours and still no word..I start to get kinda angry. Ok so another pet pieve that I just discovered is my sister correcting me when it comes to Hedley lyrics. It's bad enough that I was wrong but did it have to be her to discover it. Grr. Anyways so that's my ranting for the evening, I dunno I've been in a bad mood all day and maybe I just really needed someone to talk to, someone to take me away from this insanity. My home life hasn't been amazing, scratch that..it hasn't even been moderately ok. It's been crap, and I can't do fuck all about it because it has nothing to do with me..but still I have to live through this hell. Stuck in the middle of all of it, feeling guilty that there isn't more that I can do to help her get better, more money I can give to help pay bills, more time I can spend at home so that she doesn't have to be alone, more I can do for anything or anyone but there's not. I'm working 4 fucking jobs just so that I can attempt to pay room and board and support myself, atleast pay for my own clothes and shit but these jobs require specific clothes and shoes so I'm going in a fucking circle. I finally think I'm getting things sorted out and something gets fucked up. The stress of trying to keep 4 work schedules organized is driving me insane and I know that I need to drop some of them but which ones, what do I do if I leave one or two and then get no hours at the others. Then what? I'm planning on moving out into a house with Sacha and Nena and maybe Shayna in September and my mom knows and she pretty much asked/told me not to mention it around her right now because she can't handle the idea and then started guilting me, asking what I'm going to do with my cats. Fuck. What do I do? someone please just tell me...If I work lots I can help pay bills but then she has to be alone all the time Crysta doesn't give a fuck and my dad works..but if I stay home then I can't help pay bills and will have absolutely no life. Not that I have much of one now.

In other news..been working tonnes, umm I ran into Megan's mom...Jojo the other day, saw her before work and she pretended like she didn't see me and turned around and walked the other way..then she came into my work and was shopping and pretty much ignored my existance until she was about to leave and then pretended like everything is just fantastic. Never mind the fact that her and my mom haven't spoken in 2 years (for reason that will go unmentioned on here) and the fact that her daughter has completely abolished any friendship between us out of pure laziness about putting any effort into it.

My sister has barely been around, I don't remember the last time we actually had a conversation about anything without Shawn being there or interupting or some shit. He's always there, never not here. Won't find a job or do anything with his life. Crysta's either at work or her, Shawn, Alex and Chelsea are taking off to go to Victoria (yesterday) or Tofino (today) or to go mini golfing or to the movies or whatever their little hearts desire while I work my ass off or sit at home with my mom keeping her company, attempting to make some sort of difference. Do you think they'd ever consider inviting me? hell no. I was only bestfriends with Alex for about 4 years but he couldn't even bother to come inside to say hello or say "how's it going?".

Fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. I've been trying to stop swearing, you can see where that's getting me. No where. I would honestly pay someone to kidnap me right now. And I don't even mean a friend taking me to do something...I would go for a complete stranger breaking in, blind folding me and duct taping my mouth shut..stuffing me in the trunk of a car and taking me away. Might be a repreave. I have one more day off tomorrow, maybe I'll actually get to enjoy this one. If my neck stops fucking hurting like fuck and I can actually get out and do something. If someone would actually think for once that maybe..just maybe..I need a friend. Not someone to tell me everything that's wrong with me and what I need to change about myself..not someone to judge me and tell me who to be or what I should be doing with my life. I don't need to hear that shit right now. I just need someone to care...genuinely care, not pretend. I need someone to listen and get me drunk or something. I just need to relax and be able to let lose. Be who I want to be for a change and not care what anyone thinks. I'm sick of trying to fit into the stereotype that people have set for me. I'm sick of being told what kind of person I am and how I'm supposed to act. I'm sick of being the good girl who never does anything wrong, always makes the right decisions, always sticks to their morals and never gives in and tries new things. I'm sick of being the good role model, the well behaved, well adjusted, logical, rational, responsible girl that I'm constantly being expected to be.

That's that and that's all I've gotta say for now.

Woot to the internet and days off!

I have my damn internet back! yay...took friggen long enough. Umm my life....work..work...more work...rarely seeing people, rarely talking to people...that about sums it up. I hungout with Shayna the other day and we did a bunch of shopping which was pretty sweet. I saw Sacha and Will last friday for church and then this past friday night when we tried to go see Pirates 2 but it was sold out so we went to the other theatre and saw The Devil Wears Prada. It was alright, could have been much much better...the plot was alright it just had so much potential to be so much better. I started work at Sterling on friday, it's pretty cool there but a shit load of running to the backroom to find people sizes and stuff so it's a lot different from Shoe Warehouse. Apparently Phil saw me while I was working but I didn't see him and that's creepy. He seems to be seeing me and finding out things about people somehow a lot lately and it's rather eary. Umm but yes...I must depart now because my dad's home to drive me to work. I work at 2 but am picking up atleast part of Tasha's wonderful belated birthday present before hand. I'm so excited, I'm not even joking. It's going to provide so many good times. Well peace out yo and if anyone wants to chill just give me a call (not at work, I'll smack you) I'm off at 6pm tonight and off tomorrow and tuesday! Love ya all!